so I got busy and drafted the holiday missive. I generally like to focus on travel but this year we were pretty much state-side with my sister being ill. I found it difficult write about her death - the sadness seemed to overwhelm the good times we had this year.
I left out a lot of things - but of course the nature of an annual letter means a lot of stuff get passed by.
then I made two cards for us to send- I like a choice - one of the Paris trip and one of the Argentina trip.
soon we will have cards to mail and a busy social schedule and the days will pass by but right now I am overwhelmed by the loss of my sister- activity keeps the ghosts at bay but you can be slammed upside your head with grief if you even let a little crack open.
I know time heals - my dad died in 2001 - and my loss seems more manageable- but right now my loss of Janna is like a wound that bleeds with the slightest movement of memory.
the two of us- I am the older/taller sister-
and here we all are - the three of us kids-